This is something I actually wrote 12 days ago on November 6th on my personal blog. However, we have decided to post all trip related stuff onto this page rather than having our own seperate pages. So here it is:
After returning from Guatemala in September I felt completely changed by God. I felt like a new person. It was such an amazing spiritual journey for me. I loved the team I went with, I loved the villagers. I felt God’s presence every day. There is another team going down in January and I will probably not be going. Before I left for my last trip I had already bought my ticket for Buenos Aires leaving 3 days before the next Cajixay team would leave. Since coming back, I have prayed and asked God, if you want me to change my ticket and go to Cajixay in January, I will do it. I never felt a strong enough call to justify the financial commitment that that trip would take or the prospect of leaving Adam by himself for two weeks in Buenos Aires! I still felt a strong desire in my heart to see the villagers again, to visit that area again, to share another great experience with my team members. However, I also knew that there would be more chances for that, that January was only one trip and there would be many more. I also know, with how much love I feel for everybody there, that I will be back. But it was still a tough decision. For a while I thought I had pretty much made up my mind, that I was not going to go because I did not feel a strong enough call to go back in January specifically. But then I received a few emails from people, and I thought about the team leaving without me and it made me sad thinking I would not be with them. Yesterday, I thought about it most of the day, I prayed about it. At one point I just playfully took a coin and said “ok God, if it’s heads I go to Cajixay. If it’s tails I stick with the plan.” I had no intentions on deciding by flipping a coin but I was desperate. I flipped once, it was tails. I said ok, lets try again. It was tails. Then I was like ok…best of five. The next flip was tails. I prayed again…is that really want you want from me? I flipped again…it was tails. I flipped three more times after that…all the tosses came up tails. This was a little freaky…does God really speak through coin flips? I went down to Adam’s room and explained what happened. Amused, he flipped a couple times for me and the coin did the random thing. Probably knowing I can be a bit looney, he probably didn’t think very much of it. He went back to doing his homework and I went back upstairs. Of course I was still amazed at my run of trails. I prayed some more, switched coins and tails came up three more times in a row. I went back down and interrupted Adam’s homework again to tell him that the coin landed tails for me 10 times in a row now. I went back upstairs, flipped twice more. Both times landed tails. I am not making this story up. I started to get the feeling that maybe, just maybe God was trying to tell me something. Of course I wasn’t going to stop there though. I had a run of 12 in a row! I got two heads in a row and decided to stop. The probability of flipping 12 tails in a row by chance is 1/4096. Believe it or not I still was not convinced. Sometimes I think God could slap me across the face and I would think “wow…that was a strong sudden burst of wind!” I refused to decide on coin flips. I thought about it some more and realized I would be an absolutely terrible friend to make Adam go to Buenos Aires for two weeks by himself with no connections (Dani’s bro will be in Guatemala). I could not do that to him. I know the team going down to Cajixay will be an awesome team without me so I realized I was needed more in Buenos Aires. Also, knowing that I will have more chances later to go to Guatemala, comforted me. In other words, after feeling very conflicted for a day, I am back on board with the plan. Leaving January 10th for Buenos Aires. Boo ya!
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